Thursday, January 19, 2017
Self-realization
In 2010/11 once Jordin got out of rehab he started to see things more clearly. He went up to Rankin Inlet and apologize to many of the people up there like his buddies girlfriends who he caused fights that he didn’t know about when he would come up and get drunk with them. Jordin started playing hockey better. His entire life became more clear to him. He saw how he wasn’t just a fighter on the team and that he could score goals. He was able to play for longer periods of time on the ice. This is all because he sobered up and he realized it. The thing that’s really important is that Jordin could felt better, saw what he was doing was wrong, and tried to make it up to not only himself but to everyone he had ever hurt because of his drinking. Being able to realize your wrongs isn’t hard, but acting on them and trying to make them right takes lots of self realization and strength.
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Did he ever try to apologize to the people he hurt or did he just leave it alone?
ReplyDeleteI think he mentioned he apologized to everyone who had ever been affected by his drinking. There were so many, it took him two years and I'm sure there were people he wasn't able to find.
ReplyDeleteHe talked specifically about apologizing to his friends and their significant others back in Rankin, but when he said he apologized to his family, he used that exact blanket word.
"Family"
He later said his parents were kind of awakward about it and let it slide past, so they'd never have to bring it up again. He never does say how or if he apologized to Corrine, his older sister. I mean, after Terrence was gone and Jordin went of the deep end, a bottle of booze in one hand with a hockey stick in the other, she was left holding the bag.
Married with kids, a family to support, and then suddenly a drinking habit to support from your parents? Because Jordin and Terrence had been supporting that addiction together. It had taken both of their paychecks. Well when Terrence was gone, so was his money. I don't believe for a second that they wouldn't have asked her for money.
And she was dealing with the loss f her little brother with no support from her other sibling or her parents. Jordin wasn't even really dealing, he was just drinking.
All of this added to the worry of where Jordin was, how he was holding up, what was he doing now (because big sister instincts don't just stop) and she had to have been the one making Terrence's funeral arrangements. No one else would do it with Jordin away and her parents drowning in hard liquor.
There had to have been so much hardship on her end of this disfunctional family, and she barely gets any mention in his book. I get the impression from her lack of mention that he isn't that close with her. Does he even know about any of this? Did he think about it?
Where was her apology? I think she would be the one he had to apologize to the most.
Or maybe none of that ever happened and my big sister instincts went into maximum overdrive as I was reading this book. Either way, I would've loved to hear more about her.
I think he mentioned he apologized to everyone who had ever been affected by his drinking. There were so many, it took him two years and I'm sure there were people he wasn't able to find.
ReplyDeleteHe talked specifically about apologizing to his friends and their significant others back in Rankin, but when he said he apologized to his family, he used that exact blanket word.
"Family"
He later said his parents were kind of awakward about it and let it slide past, so they'd never have to bring it up again. He never does say how or if he apologized to Corrine, his older sister. I mean, after Terrence was gone and Jordin went of the deep end, a bottle of booze in one hand with a hockey stick in the other, she was left holding the bag.
Married with kids, a family to support, and then suddenly a drinking habit to support from your parents? Because Jordin and Terrence had been supporting that addiction together. It had taken both of their paychecks. Well when Terrence was gone, so was his money. I don't believe for a second that they wouldn't have asked her for money.
And she was dealing with the loss f her little brother with no support from her other sibling or her parents. Jordin wasn't even really dealing, he was just drinking.
All of this added to the worry of where Jordin was, how he was holding up, what was he doing now (because big sister instincts don't just stop) and she had to have been the one making Terrence's funeral arrangements. No one else would do it with Jordin away and her parents drowning in hard liquor.
There had to have been so much hardship on her end of this disfunctional family, and she barely gets any mention in his book. I get the impression from her lack of mention that he isn't that close with her. Does he even know about any of this? Did he think about it?
Where was her apology? I think she would be the one he had to apologize to the most.
Or maybe none of that ever happened and my big sister instincts went into maximum overdrive as I was reading this book. Either way, I would've loved to hear more about her.